March 31, 2000 - 02:49 am
Webcam up. Go here to see my smiling face.

March 30, 2000 - 17:59 pm
I absolutely love thunderstorms and pouring rain. It's the best.

March 27, 2000 - 21:13 pm
There's nothing like waiting to the last possible moment to study for a test, then taking the test, and knowing that you aced it. But then again, it was a business test. Still, though, a great feeling.

March 17, 2000 - 02:08 am
argh.... I just read Eric's update. Very frustrating. It has to do with my post about A, B, and C. It is most definitely worth risking your friendship for the possibility of love. Maybe I'm alone in that opinion, but Love is the most precious thing that exists. If God is love, as the bible professes and I believe, we should spend our every waking hour pursuing all different kinds of love, including the kind of love that exists between a man and a woman. ARGH! I can't even begin to put into words the magnitude of Love. Love is worth more than any multitude of friendships.

March 17, 2000 - 01:56 am
Upon checking my last update, I noticed that it's March 17th. Happy St. Patrick's Day.

March 17, 2000 - 01:55 am
No, I haven't updated in a while. Nothing interesting has happened. Well, when I say that, I mean that I don't find it interesting enough to post to the whole world, like other people. (no, that's not a slur at anyone. I just don't think like other people and I am not as open as others) I do, however, have an opinion on the 'ARF ... drama,' as Dave puts it. Read his latest article for terminology, I'll be using the same he used.

The way I see it, Love is the intent of A and B. After all, the end result of any relationship is one of two things. The relationship either ends, or they fall in love and stay together for the rest of their lives. The latter, in my opinion, is worth almost any amount of effort and any amount of hassle. Think about it.... the sheer magnitude of being in love with someone, and wanting to spend every waking hour with said person, FAR outweighs almost any means by which this result was achieved. Of course, there are exceptions, such as murder, that I feel are extreme. So I think that both A and B should give all they have into their effort of achieving their goal, C. All's fair in love and war. I only have one thing to say to A and B. Don't put on airs. Say what you're thinking. Don't lie. Be direct and honest--to each other, to C and with yourselves. Not saying what you mean only digs yourself into a deeper whole. Actually, that advice holds for anyone, including C. So, have at it guys. Don't do something you'll regret, but also, make sure you won't regret not doing everything within your means to trying to obtain love. That, perhaps, is the worst possible regret.

March 13, 2000 - 02:44 am
boo

March 13, 2000 - 2:41 am
DHNet is da Debul!!! No Quake3???? What am I going to do??? How can I function??? If I go ballistic and go on a killing spree, we can blame DHNet for not allowing me to release my aggression via Quake3. You think that would hold up in court?

March 10, 2000 - 11:24 am
Yes, my page is very green. I like it. I figured it's cool, and it's almost St. Patrick's Day, so why not?? That and the fact that I HAVE ABSOLUTELY NOTHING TO DO HERE AT HOME, so I figured I'd do stuff to my webpage. I could have studied.... but that goes back to my previous update.

March 10, 2000 - 11:15 am
Well, I went to the doctor today, to find out what's up with my wrist. Big surprise, I have tendonitis. I'm supposed to stay away from the computer, or use it less. I suppose that staying away from the computer for a while wouldn't be a bad thing, but it would be difficult, dangit. I really do need to stay away from the computer for a while. Like Dave, my grades are slipping, and I pretty much have the computer to blame for it. No, actually, I have me to blame for it, I just waste all the time I should be studying on the computer. Oh well, maybe I'll get motivated enough like Dave and at least cut back on my computer usage. We shall see.

March 09, 2000 - 20:24 pm
Are you male? Do you not have a girlfriend, like me? You need to go here. I found this link on Dave's page. This site, though extremely unpleasing to the eyes, is quite funny. I recommend it to any guy who is single and doesn't want to be, which is probably about 95 percent of all single guys.

March 09, 2000 - 19:55 pm
Yes, I have joined the Supreme-Geek Society..... I bought my own domain name, if you haven't already noticed. That's right, www.jayzee.net is open for business.

March 09, 2000 - 16:42 pm
Well, that didn't last long. Dave has already found out and written me an email. Oh well, joke's over. No bigge.

March 09, 2000 - 03:15 am
Well, for those of you who don't know, Dave has given up any recreational use of his computer. Read his recent journal to get the details. I have much to say about this, and I hope I can get it all out in a reasonably organized fashion.

First of all, I commend him for sacrificing something of this magnitude for Jesus, if that is indeed his reasoning for doing so. (oops, I think I might have just let the cat out of the bag) If this were coming from anyone else, (well, maybe not Brian j/k) I would believe him genuinely. However, this is Dave. (many of you are probably wondering why I'm bashing Dave like this. The reason is simple and two-parted--1:if he lives up to his agreement, then he won't read my page until the last week in April, hehe. 2:This is a test of his will power. He can't get mad at me cause he can't see it. Therefore, if he does get mad at me, that means that he has broken his covenant with himself. So DON'T tell him I wrote this.)

I'd like to say now, that I like Dave, and he's a good person. However, Dave is a very 'Me' person. He lives for attention. He does things that he thinks portray him in a 'cool' light. He also does things that he thinks could be perceived as 'different' on the off-chance that someone might think he's cool for doing said thing, and thus would comment about it to him. It is my proposal that this is yet another one of those attention-getting attempts. He's already achieved his goal because I'm writing about it. The good thing about this is that he can't see it.

So, I think that we should all NOT SAY A WORD to him about his computer sacrifice. Deprive him of the attention I think he is striving to get. I think this would make it a true sacrifice for him.

March 07, 2000 - 13:32 pm
I finished moving the website (finally, took forever on this stupid modem connection). From what I can tell, this is definitely a better server than afn's. No idle time disconnects on the ftp server (unless it's a really high number of seconds that I haven't made it to yet) and we get 20 megs of space. Very nice. If you're a UF student and are wandering how to set it up, login to your Gatorlink account. Click on Modify, then web page, then create. Then just ftp your site to plaza.ufl.edu/yourusernamehere. It's that simple.

March 07, 2000 - 02:43 am
Whoo hoo!! Figured it out. (thanks Fuster). Also, this page will be moving to a new server, plaza.ufl.edu. Expect a move very soon....

March 06, 2000 - 03:35 am
If you have any idea why there is a huge space below, let me know. Thanks.

March 06, 2000 - 03:26 am
Spring Break has begun. I haven't done much. I came home yesterday, and I just bummed around the house, looking at what my parents had changed as far as decorating and gardening is concerned. They wallpapered my bathroom, and it looks nice. They've added quite a few azaleas to the front and back yards, added some various shrubberies, and moved roses and other shrubs around. They love to do home improvement/gardening stuff. I never got into that stuff much, but sometimes it can be fun.

I realized something today. I took a mental 'inventory' of my past relationships and where they are today. Here's what I compiled:

Jeni	Elementary/Jr. High	Just had her second daughter, by her husband Justin, two weeks ago
Brandy	Very short period 10th	Got pregnant by her boyfriend in HS, married him. Don't know what's up now.
Kim	1-2 months my Jr. Year	Went to NC State and married some guy from there.
Leia	10th grade/12th grade/freshman year	After I broke up with her, went to school in AL. Since has met someone and is informally engaged (so goes the rumor).
Nameless person	Recent(?) fling(?) this summer(?) and for whom I still have feelings	Met someone at school this semester and is becoming serious, from what I can tell.

So what did I realize??? I realized that 3 out of 4 of my previous girlfriends are married. 2 have kid(s). The remaining girlfriend is engaged. The last mentioned 'relationship' (I seem hesitant calling this a relationship because it's all so vague and disappointing. Half a world's distance between people and no means of communicating puts a hamper on an already long-distance relationship that's just barely starting.) seems to be getting serious with her newfound boyfriend. Where does this leave me??? In a relationship-less pit striving hard to get out and onto solid relationship ground. Oh well, I'm sure I'll find someone sometime. In the meantime I'm screwed.

Since I'm up, am on the topic of male/female relationships, and I am not tired, I figured that I'd comment on something that I noticed last weekend, that I thought was funny. Peculiar-funny, that is, not haha-funny or weird-funny. We went to see American Beauty at the movie theater. Now, in this movie you see a few things. You see two females' breasts and two guys' rear-ends. First off, you see Kevin Spacey in the shower. What do you expect to happen? That's right, practically every guy in the theater groans in disgust, and no comment from the female audience. Next you see the brunette-chick's breasts. Exultation from the males, and again, no comment from the females. Next, you see the other male main character's rear-end. Again, groans of disgust from guys, no comment from females. Finally, you see Blond-Chick's breasts. Same as before, praise from the guys, nothing from the gals. Now, when asked why guys do this, you often get a response similar to this: "Dude, it's a guy!! I don't want to see a guy's butt! That's gay!!" And since girls have no qualms about seeing another chick's breasts, (I am generalizing greatly in this commentary), one would then be led to the conclusion that guys are extremely insecure in their sexuality, while girls aren't. I find this curious, because I, and most of my close friends from HS, are not homophobic at all. So when I came to college and found that some guys would rather use the stalls than the urinals, and walk into the shower fully clothed, and give me dirty looks when I use the 3rd or 4th showers which are open (God forbid they see a penis), I was a bit confused. Why should this be? Is it how we are raised? Or is it in our genetic code? Or is it a social peculiarity unique to the US? It is my experience that guys from other countries aren't nearly as homophobic as US guys. (e.g., European guys readily wear speedos in public and are more at ease at nude beaches, etc). Here's another interesting point. Guys get all up tight when seeing guys' what-nots when portrayed in 'love-scenes' in movies and such, which are totally un-gay (if there is such a term) and lack any homosexual innuendos whatsoever. In fact, they're the essence of Heterosexuality. However, put two, sometimes four or more, guys in a rink, in tight, revealing, hot-pink speedos and let them 'go at it' and we call it wrestling and cheer them on!!! How more 'gay' can you get?!?!

I have no idea what my point is. Maybe it's that I'm not homophobic so I don't think that other people should be either. Maybe it's that guys should be proud of their penises, not scared of them. Maybe I just want people to use all four showers instead of just the 2 that have curtains (even though I no longer live in Weaver). Maybe I just noticed yet another hypocritic point in our society, and I felt I should point it out. You make your own decision.

March 01, 2000 - 15:32 pm
I'm going insane!!!! I can't find my usb adapter for my joystick!!!!!!!!!!! Anyone have anything that I can break???!?!??